Dik,
Assalamualaikum
Seems that I didn't able to keep my promise to write regularly. I thought I will write to you often enough and it will pay with previous year's debt to you, but again I guess I didn't try hard enough. I didn't feel great about it Dik.
Ok, let's not wasting time. How much I want to say about the current 2020 situation but I can't. I must wait until I finish my 2019 stories.
How was our 2019? In general I think 2019 was good. Some angle there are improvement, but other angle things are slightly deteriorated. Let's talk about it in details
You & School; You are still in Lower Elementary Class or easy to understand, you are now in Grade 3 class. Same like last year, you are good in some subject but struggles in some. I tried to help whenever you bring your school book home but since your school doesn't believe of homework, not much could be done except looking from outside source. Yes we did that, yet I still feel it is not enough though but at the same time doesn't want to push you too hard. We come from different generation and I understand that the current education doesn't works with my generation education system. At the same time I feel that looking for alternative way to dig your life skill. I am still searching, until the day I write this. I know it is there, just waiting for the right time to be found. I need to find it soon, other than that, I will lost.
You and friends: I believe you loves your friends. As 2019, your only circles of friend is only from your school. Even though you attend some extra activity outside school but I could see that you still find it is difficult to be accepted I knew most of your close friend and seems that they came from very nice family too. Whenever I picked you from school I could see that you mingle quite well with your school friends. But I also notice you still have some lacking in social skill. Who doesn't kan Dik. This old mother of yours had the same problem until now. Maybe you inherited from me.
You and us: Family wise, the relationship is getting tougher right. Is it the early teen thingy? You had your own says, we had our own too. Sometime the both parties manage to compromise with each other but some times, we struggle to understand each other. Lots of tears and lots of frustration. But in between, lots of laughter too. In general, I found that you are funny kid and a joker, but I guess we are not a serious type of family. Many times, in the middle of tears we laugh together. Many times, in the middle of scolding I couldn't pretend that I was mad anymore.
I guess since you were young I use a straight forward approach. I never keep secret from you, on almost anything; let it be your spectrum or financial situation. But actually, I didn't now whether is is a good approach or should i just trying my best to keep our family struggle and pretend that everything is alright?
So, to wrap it, 2019 started good and end good too. Not much travelling but I always put high hope on that. Insyaallah one day we will cross the globe together Dik. Only 2 of us. Maybe Trans Siberian Train or maybe Norway by bicycle. It is ok to dream as dream makes us move forward. Till the next post.. please remember I love you so much. More that I love anyone else
